I finally launched my website

So, as I write this, I’ve been doing what I love for almost six years now, and I don’t regret a single moment of it. And at this point in my life, I’ve had jobs, commissions, deadlines, all kinds of clients, and tasks (literally), especially right now.

Well, I’m currently working on a Roblox game as a scripter (which is currently featured on my homepage). And things are looking good, honestly, because that game has a community, funding, and a great dev team that’s actually really cool.

The thing is, I’m going through something that many programmers have probably felt at some point in their careers: thinking that I’m not good enough, or that I’m incompetent. Even though deep down I know that’s not true and it’s just a matter of looking at it from a different perspective or taking a break to come back with a clearer mind, I still keep thinking it.

Right now, that game has a lot of bugs that I’m fixing, but there are so many and they’re so varied that I don’t even know where to start or how to start writing to figure out how to begin (🤔). Add to that the fact that this game had “12 scripters”, some who were just coding on a whim without knowing what they were doing, others who literally had no idea what they were doing, leaving the game in a somewhat advanced state, but technically despicable.

I’d compare it to building a luxurious building, but taping it to the floor with duct tape 💀

So, getting to the title of this post: while I was working on that spaghetti code I mentioned, I’d sneak away to work on this website, which is crazy because, technically I was slacking off. But remote work is actually really flexible, and it pays pretty well. That’s what motivates me, and seeing some colleagues who work 12 hour days or in terrible environments makes me feel grateful.

And in fact, we all have something to be grateful for.